I can’t help but laugh at the fact that I caught my first post-chemo cold this time last year. I have yet again caught a cold. Jacob had it early last week, then Joe so it was only a matter of time before it made its way to me. The congestion is not awesome but thankfully I don’t have a fever so it just needs to run its course. I am also grateful that it is my off week so my body can fight a little harder this week to battle this virus!
Today was a busy day. I had radiation and met with the doctor afterwards as I normally do on Tuesdays. My skin is quite pink and peeling everywhere but my armpit is the most painful. Just about every time I move my arm, I am reminded of the radiated area. You don’t realize how much you move during your sleep! It wakes me up a lot but at least I fall back asleep. J The radiation oncologist says my skin looks great compared to when I first started – so wonderful to hear that! My skin nodules (breast cancer) are completely gone with the exception of the one that I had biopsied. I assume it’s scar tissue around the biopsy site since I can literally see where the stitches were. She wants to see me again on Friday to determine how I’m doing and if I should take a few days off after the 20 before doing the 5 boost treatments. She wants to focus on where the breast cancer on my skin was and my lymph nodes. It’s hard to feel the lymph node in my armpit right now but I would guess it is at least a sixth of the size that it was…barely even there! The lymph node in my neck can’t even be felt anymore. Such great progress. I keep reminding myself that a few weeks of pain and discomfort from this radiation is worth it to make this cancer disappear from those areas. And we are almost done – day 15 was today!
I met with my oncologist afterwards and we had a nice long chat with my million or so questions. J It was a nice conversation and I was greeted with a big hug. My feet feel significantly better today, despite the blister that formed from hand & foot syndrome over the weekend. The oncologist said that since it started at the end of chemo that is a sign that it was time for the week break for sure. We will see how the next round goes and then reassess whether or not to lower the dosage. I am hesitant to do that only because it appears to be working. At the same time, why do I want to subject my body to a higher dose if I don’t need to? Oh, the things to consider… I’ve been having lower back pain since about the time that my feet started hurting. This is obviously concerning because I have cancer in my pelvic bones. It is significantly better today and yesterday though. I spoke with my oncologist about it and he said it was likely a result of my white blood cell count causing bone pain in that particular area. That was a previous chemo reaction too, yikes. It was pretty painful so I am curious if I have it with this next dose as well.
My blood work also looks good, considering it is my off week. While my white / red blood cells, platelets and hemoglobin are technically low, it’s good news that they are higher this week. I certainly don’t want to take any more time off than I need.
So today, my prayers are of gratitude. I am grateful that this chemo appears to be working. I am grateful that despite the side effects of radiation, everything seems to be responding to it. I am grateful for a team of doctors that I truly appreciate and that they whole-heartedly support (and encourage!) every second opinion that I receive. I am grateful for today because despite this cold, I am here and able to snuggle my dear husband and little man.
I am also grateful for the gift of time…in so many ways. Stay well, friends – and spread that love!