My room. 

I started thinking about new year’s resolutions a few weeks before 2016 ended. I had a few things in mind…not so much resolutions but things that I wanted to change in my life.  Time slipped by and these got away from me a bit. I kept meaning to implement these changes or make progress on them but it was never at the top of my list.  The last few days, I was reminded that time will always continue to pass. I will always find an excuse or a reason not to fit something in or to change priorities. If I don’t implement the goals that I want to see, then who will?  No more excuses.

I looked at my goals for 2016 and for the most part, I was successful in the things that I was able to control. Being re-diagnosed with Stage 4 doesn’t necessarily change my goals but it does change the perspective that I have when making them. A lot of things that popped in my head are changes that I’ve been wanting to make anyway and just haven’t gotten around to it. So wrapping them up with a pretty green bow and calling them 2017 Goals is the way I’m incorporating them into my life.  It is Chinese New Year today, after all! 😊

One of the goals that I set for us is my One Line a Day book. Another is sleeping routines.

I was gifted these books by two different ladies at the end of 2015. They are 5 year journals but you only write a few lines for each day. It’s usually something memorable that happened or something fun that we did. Or maybe we had a visitor or Jacob did something I never want to forget. I’m pretty good about keeping up with them, though sometimes I fall behind and I’m struggling to remember what funny or special thing happened a few days ago. Having a memory that is failing does not make this an easy task. One goal this year was to include Jacob in these entries each day. He’s talked about it before and I’ve asked him what to include but I wanted it to be something he looks forward to each night. Since it’s a new year, this time when we open the book to a new day, we have last years entry to read. It’s exciting to reminisce on what we did this day last year or where Jacob was developmentally. 

One of the comments that filled almost every day for the first week of the year was about Jacob sleeping in his own bed. Nap time, bed time – even sleeping through the night! My goodness, it was going so well last year – what happened?! Radiation in April/May, that’s what. Halfway through and I was too exhausted for middle of the night wake ups or hour-long (and then some) bedtimes. Coming into our bed in the early morning turned into halfway through the night, turned into barely an hour in, turned into “Bedtime, Jacob! Hop in between Momma & Dad-dad.” The rest is history. 

I love Jacob sleeping in our bed – I do! He is such a good snuggler, he hugs me for no reason and, well, there is nothing quite like waking up to his smiling face telling me good morning (“it’s not too dark!”). But he often wakes up before he should because Joe & I are getting ready for the day. Or he goes to bed too late because we are finishing something up before bed.  For those reasons and more, we felt like it was time to try his bed again. 

We have been talking about it with him a lot, especially when we were on the cruise and going home to his big-boy bed. But we haven’t made any actual attemps yet. So this afternoon when Joe asked him where he wanted to take a nap, we were both surprised that his answer was “my room”.

It took a while, a walk around his room, lots of snuggles and some singing but it happened. After some ninja moves to leave the room, we were shocked that he slept for his entire 2 hour nap in his bed. Dare we try bedtime too?!

Since Jacob was in my tummy, I have wanted to start reading him different book series at night. Many are books that I’ve been wanting to read and others are from my childhood. I visited a used book store at one point when he was only a few months old and bought treasures just for that. They have been patiently waiting in his closet since, for me to look at every time I opened the door.  

Hours before bed, we started to tell him about our new routine. We continued to prepare him all night. When his jammies were on and his teeth were brushed, we asked him where he was sleeping tonight, “my room”.

And so it began. We laid in his crib and I read the first chapter of Harry Potter to him. He was fidgety at first, rolled around a lot, talked to his animals as well as himself…and eventually fell asleep. I don’t know that he actually listened to the chapter at all but tonight was priceless to me. 

Eventually, I want to record myself reading to him but for now, we have completed the first of many nighttime readings that are still to come. 

Here’s to 2017 goals!