I’m talking about radiation in a bit of detail today so if you don’t want to hear the nitty gritty, feel free to skip this post. 🙂
A few years after Ghostbusters came out, I became obsessed with it. I love everything about the movie but my absolute favorite was the Stay Puft Marshmallow Man. I would watch the entire movie just to see him at the end. I had a large not-so-stuffed version of him that I played with regularly…he was not so white by the time I was done playing with him! I wonder what happened to him?
My other favorite scene – and by favorite I mean love to hate scene – is the ghost in the library. They initially find the card catalog with slime all over one of the drawers and take it back for analysis. I grew up going to the library regularly (pre-internet!) and the setup brings back so many memories, minus the slime of course. The Ghostbusters eventually find Slimer in the hotel – and get slimed in the meantime. It cracks me up to watch, actually. This is totally one of my favorite movies…and I must go watch it again now.
Anyway, I didn’t receive radiation treatment yesterday. I was on the table for about 45 minutes and for some reason, we couldn’t get me lined up properly. Usually, the technicians line me up first, take pictures, then apply the bolus, take more pictures and treat. It took about 30 minutes and some up & downs to line me up before the initial pictures and after the bolus was applied, I still wasn’t perfect. I am grateful for their diligence in ensuring perfection. Eventually the doctor came in and chatted with me. Although she could treat me, I had already been on the table for 45 minutes and they needed to start over, meaning it would be at least another 45 minutes. Frankly, I had never been in so much pain during radiation before so I was grateful to get off the table.
My appointment is early morning, which I am very happy about. I lather up all day but I can’t apply any lotions 4 hours prior to treatment. Before bed, I cover myself with my layers then shower in the morning and wash everything off. My skin is incredibly dry afterwards, especially in the radiated area. Since my skin is bright red and peeling, it hurts something fierce…particularly in the morning because everything is so incredibly dry. When I had radiation to my left side, it was painful for sure but since I had my lymph nodes removed on the left, a lot of the feeling in my armpit was (is) gone. On my right and chest however, I have a lot more feeling so this go around is more painful and quite different. Plus they are hitting me at 25% stronger than my left side because of the metastases. The pain has been getting a little worse each day but it snuck up on me yesterday and I was barely able to lift my right arm for radiation. I have pain medicine but it’s not something I take before radiation because I drive myself.
The bolus is taped to me each day and I am typically taped to the table. This week, the technicians have been careful because of my skin beginning to peel. When the doctor and technicians attempted to take my bolus off yesterday, my skin decided to go with it. It didn’t feel awesome and thankfully they had already avoided my armpit entirely. It took them probably 5 minutes and a lot of apologies to get the bolus off. I smiled through it and talked to them about what to do going forward to focus on something other than the pain. No more of that bolus – or tape – for me!
Needless to say, the doctor was insistent on my getting a ride from now on and making sure I take extra pain medicine just before every treatment. So today, I did just that. The old bolus was tossed yesterday and today we used a different kind. I had to touch it, of course, and the first thing I thought of was Slimer! Remember the slime you had as kids, I think it was from Nickelodeon? I would compare it to that too. That is literally what it felt like. It used to be green but is now hot pink!
The technicians took the “slime” in powder form, mixed it with cold water and shook it up in a bag for 4 – 5 minutes. The areas that they were radiating were covered in plastic wrap, then the doctor and one of the technicians took the slime and created a bolus on me. The process was labor intensive for them and my neck & hairline were slightly covered at the end but you can’t help but laugh at that! The bolus they created was used to treat me and then they wrapped it all up in more plastic wrap so that it stays moist for my remaining treatments. It was an interesting experience today! Also, thanks to the pain medicine ahead of time it barely hurt at all – whew!
Today was treatment 17 of 20 – almost done! Then we will talk about when to do the 5 boost treatments; right away or wait? I have upcoming travel (Sloan, Emory and a wedding!) so we will have to talk through the pros and cons of that. In the meantime, I am learning to stay on top of my pain medicine (I try to power through it but this is just not something to power through anymore) and remember that the end is in sight!
Now, I am off to see where I can watch Ghostbusters for free….Happy Friday, friends!!