Yesterday was a tough day. I was tired, fighting a headache all day and radiation was moved around because of the machine being down. Jacob had an allergic reaction to cereal and we had to take him to the doctor. Thankfully, he is completely fine! It was a tiring day but I am so grateful everything worked out ok.
A year ago yesterday I had my port put in. A year ago tomorrow I started my very first chemo session. Fear of the unknown has been a regular for me now and although uncomfortable, I am growing accustomed to it. I took 3 days off from xeloda for the Gamma Knife and started back again this morning. It’s interesting how you grow anxious about taking the pills. They are strong and working hard on my body to fight this disease and yet I worry when I take days off. I am glad to begin again today.
I decided to take the medicine prescribed to me to help me sleep last night. Although tired today, I slept most of the night uninterrupted and I am so grateful for that. I needed sleep!
I am still fighting the headaches from Gamma Knife today but overall, I am a bit swollen and that’s all. I feel better than I expected and I’m glad for that. My skin is turning a nice shade of red from the chest radiation so I know the skin reactions will come but I am lotioning up in the meantime! In all of the chaos this week, I forgot to mention that when I met with my chest radiation oncologist Tuesday, she remarked about how great everything looks! Though she is mostly crediting the xeloda, my chest and lymph nodes are significantly smaller and looking great. Such wonderful news to hear!! I am currently slated for 20 days radiation but depending on my reaction, she may keep me an additional 5 days to hit my lymph nodes harder to keep the cancer away from there. We will play that by ear and see how it goes.
So today friends, is a good day. Each day may not go as we plan and things will continue to pop up and surprise us. What we can do is embrace the changes and remember that God has a plan…whether we know it or not. Be well, friends!