Some days are hard

I started this blog with the intent of being honest and truthful – and that is what today’s post is about. I’m tired today. Bone tired. Head tired. Body tired. Mind tired. I am just all around tired. I started my second dose of chemo pills last Friday and felt fine with the radiation combination. Saturday I was a little tired but nothing crazy. Sunday I was exhausted despite a nap with little man in the afternoon. I fell asleep quickly last night but woke up at 1245am and couldn’t sleep. I think it’s time to adjust my melatonin dose, as I have been taking the lowest dose so far. It’s not so much cancer that keeps me up as the inability to shut off my head. Apparently I want to solve all of life’s – and the world’s – problems in the middle of the night. 🙂 With an 8am radiation appointment that’s 45 minutes away, you can imagine just how tired I am.

I know my body needs sleep. I know it needs to heal and I know it has a lot happening right now. I was expecting more of a gradual push towards the fatigue than a full on attack of it. But that’s ok. Know why? I have an incredible support system that ensures I rest. My sweet husband is on his way home now with little man to cook dinner while I rest and head to bed early. Tomorrow my in-laws will watch little man after daycare so that Joe & I can travel to my Gamma Knife radiation appointment bright and early Wednesday morning (leaving at 430am!). How incredibly blessed that I am is not lost on me. And who knows, maybe the twilight medicine they give me Wednesday will knock me out for most of the procedure?! One can hope, right?

Anyway, that’s all for now. A short post with a small update about how tired I am…and I’m off to rest. 🙂

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6 thoughts on “Some days are hard

  1. take a wonderful rest; you need it. I have sleep disturbances sometime and I can relate to the exhaustion and the weird sensation of all the thoughts in my mind demanding attention. wih the support and love you have, I am sure better days will come 🙂

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  2. Have you tried mindfulness to turn those head thoughts of …it helps me ..though not always easy to do … Just trying to focus on the moment and not all the other stuff…. Otherwise just sleep when ever you can ..take care xx

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