When I was pregnant with my son, I had major food aversions during the first trimester. The thought of many foods made me sick, even foods that were my favorites. I read that it is best not to eat any favorite foods during treatment because they may make me sick or they may not taste the same. This seems to be true for most foods right now. The thought of food in general is not very appealing. I’ve been sticking mostly to plain cereal, bananas and popsicles this weekend. And lots of water, despite the metallic taste.
The fatigue hit faster this time than the first round of treatment. I spent the entire weekend glued to the couch and my bed. I’ve been up for a little while this morning and as soon as I’m done typing this, I’m heading back to bed. The heartburn wasn’t as bad this time around, thankfully. I had it a little on Saturday but it didn’t last.
The overall “hungover” feeling was worse this time around. This feeling is hard to describe. Generally speaking, I just felt bad. My stomach was in knots, I had slight headaches, was incredibly thirsty and completely exhausted. I envision the treatment drugs attacking my cancer cells and fighting hard to kill them off. Battling for my life. That helps explain the way my body feels.
My cousin shared an idea to help track the treatments. When she battled brain cancer a few years ago, she hung ribbons from the wall and took one down after each treatment. I love this idea! It helps to put into perspective how many treatments remain – and how many are done. Last week, I printed out the Red Phoenix symbol and hung them up on the wall in my command center, where I keep my life organized. As I hung them, I realized something. I have now completed 2 rounds of the aggressive treatment. 2 ROUNDS ARE DONE! That means I have just 4 more to go. That means that after the next round, I will be halfway done! Isn’t that exciting?!
I will beat this!